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This week has been pretty crazy but i'm glad i'm halfway through it. :)
Got back o level results and I guess I could say it was average and I could have done better in some subjects. But like what they always say..... don't let a piece of paper run your life!
(but it actually does)

The school system is disgusting, you know? They give you a set of questions and then you do it, then they grade you according to it then the society sees your results and labels you as "Smart" or "Stupid". "Able to make it in life" or "Failure in life". Can't stand another thought of how grossed out I am about it. But I guess smart, hardworking people do deserve some recognition for the amount of hard work they put in.

Recently i've been rather envious on people that score well, have relatively good looks and can still balance a social life. All rounders, hello? they ruin people's life. Like mine. It's horrible that some thoughts like these could just make me want to disappear and feel so unwanted in so many ways.

Feeling quite empty and aimless. Undecided and lost. I guess you could put it that way.
Oh and numb, too. I wish I meant something. Everyone feels this way sometimes, right? I hope it's normal and this feeling would just go away.