This blog might possibly die at the rate i am trying to survive on purely just mobile data and zero internet at my place. Am currently in Sher's room koping some internet to surf the web- by web I mean stalk everyone's blogs, youtube, emails, and tumblr. Gosh, how I miss high speed internet. Here's a whole chunk of updates if anyone actually bothers to even come back and check on this crappy blog I mean wts I blog with zero substance and sometimes I come on and type a long ass post but I delete it anyways wow.
The past few days I've been busy unpacking and unpacking and unpacking some more. Huge huge mega huge props for Sher's help because honestly I might have died from a mental breakdown if I had to do everything by myself. The business of unpacking and getting stuff for my new place just helps block out any form of homesickness I might (still) be suffering from but I guess it's all being pushed back in my head as of now. there's no time. It's back to seeing my friends and family on the computer screen for now. (that might actually happen if I HAD INTERNET BUT NO)
Orientation starts tomorrow and I know I'll be seeing a shitload of my Trinity friends, and there'll be more familiar faces than unfamiliar ones but for some odd reason I'm still pretty nervous. And people who know me well would know that I'm terrible at navigation and that's just Singapore. Now I have to navigate myself through a university campus by myself so that is kind of freaking me out because I hate the feeling of being lost.
Times like this I really get what it means to have a love-hate relationship with change. Change is good change hurts change is different change sucks change is new change is change. It's a brand new chapter in my life, I get to meet new people (hopefully), and I have to stop feeling to sad about certain things that I should have let go a long time ago. Emily told me some things that I will remind myself whenever I feel like shit because she is my advisor and I love her. She told me all about perspective and how much it can change the way you think/feel. I won't forget the time when she said, "You know what Rachel, I think you've finally learnt how to let go." She mentioned that I seemed happier and less hung up over my friends back in Singapore, that even though I miss them terribly I still learn how to adapt and be stronger than I was a year before.
It's nice to see every one of my friends being happy and contented with everything in their lives so far. Some got attached, some are dating, others are doing well in school.
I guess its that point in time where everyone is kind of okay.
I should be too.
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