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Don't know if all of this that has been happening recently is a sign or....
well maybe I'm just thinking too much into it. I don't know.

Today I was crossing the road to get to the tram stop with Tim and Shona, and I bumped into one of my ex-trinity classmates- we were never actually that close, mainly on a hi-bye basis. She was waiting to cross the road with her ear piece on. We waved while walking past each other but a second later she stopped to face me, took out her ear piece and said, "You look very pretty today, Rachel!"

It was by far one of the most sincere compliments I've ever received. Not that I get it a lot, because I don't ever really get them, neither do I actually believe in them but I was really touched that someone I barely even knew would say something to someone she barely even knew as well.

On wednesday there was a guy that introduced himself to me but nothing happened. But it's still a right step in the right direction, right? I mean I managed to actually carry out a conversation with a total stranger alone. Even though I awkwardly went back to waiting for my friend and continuously checking twitter, I mentally gave myself a pat on the back for at least trying and stepping out of my comfort zone.

On Tuesday a guy in my class moved from his table to sit down with me and introduced himself and we did pair work together. I didn't stutter, managed to make sufficient eye contact and didn't die from nervousness.

This is definitely not an ego boost or in any way boasting, but this may be the kind of confidence I've been lacking for a very long time now. Not that I have any confidence, but I can feel it building up slowly, like from a -1 to like a 0 now. Bit by bit, I'll be better again.

Tim has been consistently telling me that I shouldn't be so negative about myself and have a more positive outlook on life. (maybe this is because he's taking "positivity" as his breath subject in uni lol)
It's rubbing off me and I'm not complaining. Surrounding myself with the right company, good vibes and lots of laughter is always good medicine for the soul.

I'm glad things are slowly starting to turn around.
Hopefully things are going to get better.

Someone said I looked pretty today, and just for tonight-
I'll believe it. :-)