Wednesday, April 3, 2019

“It’s not a matter of why. It’s a matter of when. And when is always in Gods timing”

Tonight was a series of firsts for our family.

1. We all knelt down and prayed together. Each individual prayer carefully crafted and spoke straight from the heart.

2. A 3 hour family meeting to solotionise, empathise and rationalise things out for papa. We didn’t have dinner and had Milo instead.

2a. A family meeting whereby Joshua and I spoke like adults and our words were taken in as adults in the situation.

3. Within 2 hours of hearing the news, we hopped on the first flight out to KL to be with papa.

4. After praying, papa started uncontrollably sobbing- probably after holding it in for the whole day and mummy, Joshua and I embraced him. Mummy stroked his back with her quivering voice saying, “it’s okay. It will be okay.” Joshua and I were still in embrace- mummy hugging papa, then me and then Joshua. Joshua and I then left the room quietly, I went to wash the empty cups and Joshua went to shower.

5. For the first time, I am completely at surrender with god but at the same time with faith I believe that despite this shitty circumstance, we can get through this and the timing is divine as it could not have been at a better time whereby we have no more financial obligations.

In times of crisis management like this, I am very blessed to have god our understanding bosses in my life, my family, my Brother, my friends and there is really no one else I can thank but God.


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