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I've forgotten how lonely felt like and I guess it missed me. It's a funny thing, memories. I pack them in a box and once in a while it tends to jump out of the box and give me a few surprises, while I desperately try to put them back into place, trying not to feel too much about it.

Letters are like time capsules. At that moment while writing it, you're filled with so much emotions, it feels as though you're pouring out your soul into the letter. You leave those letters untouched after a few years, going back to read it again. You suddenly recall things that you thought you've forgotten. Like, "oh, I forgot I even mentioned that!" "wow, since when the hell was I so cheesy haha"

Good times. I've forgotten about what we were and I guess it's a good thing. How foolish, how silly it was of me to believe in things that wouldn't last. I've made mistakes, but you were one of my biggest.

I think I've remembered how lonely felt like.
When you're surfing through these letters from someone that once held such an important position in your life, and knowing that it's no longer that anymore. All these words, feelings, stories - they all mean nothing now. It's almost as if they were empty words told by ghosts of the past. It's gone now - and today, I feel so, so alone.