I'm Trying To Forget

Though I know that no one's listening 
I nervously rehearsed for when you're around 
And I keep waiting like you might change my mind 

Who wrote the book on goodbye? 
There's never been a way to make this easy 
When there's nothing quite wrong but it don't feel right 
Either your head or your heart, you set the other on fire

a rush of adrenaline, chest tightening, palms getting clammy
took a sharp breath, acted as if I saw nothing, but
(I like to shoot myself in the foot. A lot.)

Agitated because-
it should be long over by now.

Look at you, getting on with life and all that shit.

I gulp down that feeling-
stay in, deep inside the pits of my guts and don't ever come back out anymore

(occasionally my stomach churns because of you)