Farewells

Officially saying goodbye to my iphone tonight. It sucks. I've managed to keep all my messages ever since my iphone 3gs till this 4s and now that I'm using an S3, the messages can't be backed up into it.

As sappy and clingy as this sounds, some of these messages really mean a lot to me. But then again, maybe it really is time to let go of some certain stuff. There really isn't a point to keep going back to the past consistently and keep getting stuck in it while others just simply move on.

Was going through the messages we sent each other back in dec/jan and I swear, I still love how we were so in sync and got each other so easily. The crappy spelling and emoticons that we both understood so effortlessly made everything funnier and up till now, no one types like you do and I mean it's a weird thing to say but I guess that's another reason why you're special. I loved how we could talk about anything and everything, even though sometimes there were reallllly long breaks in between because both of us were busy/too lazy to reply one another. But I know how crappy you are at texting and the fact that we managed to text so consistently for about as long as I've left for melbourne and came back bla bla... which has been about close to 7 months, is a miracle. Haha I caught myself laughing at our dumb conversations a few times just now and it made me realise how much I miss you. Still thought we were okay back then didn't notice any cracks but maybe then again I was too oblivious. Indeed you were one of my best friends and it's crazy that we managed to text/whatsapp almost every day for 7 months and not doing it now felt weird. I don't know about you but for me it took a lot of me to get used to it. Still am, actually.

But I guess that's part and parcel of life. Things change constantly. Feelings change, friendships change, people change. I've always had a tough time letting go of things. If the ink in my pen dies, I'll never throw away the plastic body of the pen and I'll just keep buying refills. If my slippers break, I'll find every way to try and superglue them back together because I can't bear to throw it away. It's not something to be proud of, because I know holding onto too many things will eventually kill me one day. It isn't healthy to be living in the past, especially not right now. I know the only thing I have to do is suck it up and let it go. It's like losing a best friend. Again. And like previous times, it sucks that they move on first and I'm left to pick up whatever's left. Everyone leaves first.

Because right now it's the same feeling I felt when I lost one of my best friends. The same feeling I felt when I thought I was losing my other best friend. The only difference is that this hurts a lot more maybe because I didn't think it would come this early. We might never go back to what we were the past year and maybe never talk as comfortably as we did the past 7 months or so it's only a fact I should start accepting.

So with that, I'm learning from my mistakes. No more 100+ screen caps like I did previously for someone. Because if I were to do that,  I'd most prolly screencap every single thing because I would want to remember everything we talked about, even though it was nonsense most of the time. It still scares me on how fast things changed and how quickly it takes for one to fall in love. But you gotta make the most out of the time you have being young, right? I guess that's what you taught me.

Goodbye iphone 4s, you have served me well. Goodbye messages dated from 2010 - Jan 2013. Goodbye and I'll always miss you.