5:30 am crazy thoughts I welcome with open arms.
Currently lying in my bed surrounded by the best smelling stuffed toys- Rhonda, Mr fuzzles and Winston, wrapped up in my comfortable blanket and there's John Mayer playing on my speakers. Shuffle got it right tonight.
Some people just get it easy, huh.
Wealth, having the ability to spend.
Beauty, to have the capability to charm, to attract.
Talent, having the god sent ability to be able to be crazy good at a certain something.
(This includes being a heartbreaker, or being awesome at living through heartbreaks lol)
Aim, to have dreams and that drive to want to make it real.
Courage, to be able to take risks.
Happiness. To be content regardless of what situations they're in. "If this is the worst, might as well suck it up and embrace it."
One step at a time, one step at a time.
So far I have:
1. Gone to soundwave
2. Take a plane alone to Sydney (going to)
3. Stepped out of my comfort zone, made new friends
It's getting better. I'm older, things get clearer.
Does this even make sense?
Because soon, I am going to be able to untangle myself from all these regrets, feelings and mistakes and one day, it will be okay to think of you without hating whats become of us. One day I will be able to face everything without a tinge of.... all of these useless emotions. And that one day is soon. It has to be soon, desperately. I'm exhausted from feeling exhausted. Burnt out.
Maybe this short trip would help to stop my mind from unplugging itself and make it it seem as though I can't do anything to control my thoughts.
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