Invisible.

It always pays to be one of the few sober ones in the club at 2 am, watching all the drunk guys and girls who can't even seem to stand right try to make their way for another drink at the bar. It's like watching the tv. Like there's this shield of glass I'm behind, and can't seem to understand anything that is going through their minds. Being at the same place but feeling completely detached from it, does anyone know what I mean? No? Maybe it's just me.

Even just sitting down, guys will deliberately stare at you longer than usual just to catch a glimpse of your face to see if you're pretty or not. If you are, then probably they'll gather up some more liquid courage and then ask you to dance or just try to strike up some lame i-am-sober-but-i'm-obviously-not conversation. This is all from experience because I've got Jasmine by my side the whole night and trust me, she gets a lot of action in the club. Extra attention since the club we went to was extremely trashy last night.

Most of the time I really don't mind being the "that pretty girl's friend" or someone that guys use to talk to my friends. Last night I guess I observed more than I usually would and I found out something. It's like I'm almost invisible. God, I stand at 1.73m and I can have a day where I feel completely invisible. Ha ha ha hahahahaha it really amuses me!!!!11!!11!1

There was a situation last night, where it was jasmine, some stupid dog V and me standing in a circle. Obviously, V was thinking through his dick and probably way too much alcohol, he just started using tacky gross pick up lines on Jasmine. And when I talked to jasmine he cut me off and totally moved me out of the conversation circle. Rude, offensive and shameless. I jokingly told him that if he wanted to try to hit on jasmine at least do it subtlety, and not tell me that he wants to talk to the both of us where I have to take his shit as well.

In the queue with his two other dog friends, V felt bad cause he "ignored" me just now and was trying to talk to me about guys that he'll help me pick up, which I kindly declined. His other dog friend, who I really did not like since he dissed Singapore so badly a few minutes after meeting him - told him "awwww shit bro, its like a fuckin rule not to ignore the girls friend that you're trying to hit on!"

All in all, I fucking hate trashy desperate disgusting boys who think through their dicks and it really has been a long time since I've felt so invisible? not regarded as a human/girl? (please note that when I mean "not regarded as a girl" I do not mean just cause I didn't get to have crappy pick up lines used on me ok lol try being the only girl out of three doing a bro handshake with them and listening to them talk about private parts very explicitly, getting used to get to the girls they like - which obv i said fuck off to and having them blow smoke all over my bloody face)

It wasn't with the best company last night, and its one of those times I really hate clubbing because everything is so bloody superficial and judgemental and it just really scares me sometimes.