you can't always talk about having freedom and your dislike on being controlled by your ex girlfriends and now i'm starting to realise that they're perhaps not as psychotic as you made them out to be. you probably never gave sufficient assurance, and you just went your way and met other girls and had other conversations with them. your ex girlfriends got angry and you got upset because you said they were being jealous/unreasonable. you said you didn't lie about meeting the other girls, but maybe you just dodged the topics and didn't tell your ex girlfriends. you technically weren't lying. but if you keep hiding behind these technicalities, then will you ever confront the way you've been so inconsiderate towards the people you claim you love? you can't say that they don't trust you enough...! if you're behaving/communicating like this and going behind their backs, how the fuck do you excpect them to trust you? in fact, you've just given them more reason to not trust you. you build trust by telling your ex lovers that you're meeting other girls and you assure them that everything is going to be okay. communicate however you need to to be able to give that assurance. it's only basic respect to the partner you're with.
you've expressed your feelings but you haven't taken action and that's no longer fair because i've reciprocated and told you what i wanted out of this. if you can't decide and if you don't want to take responsibility and accountability of working on this with someone then why should i bother and why should i care? how can you do this thinking that it's okay? it's extra upsetting because you were one of my best friends, and the more i keep reflecting on these situations, i'd give anything to go back to our once-in-a-while catch ups, with the surface banter and questions. i don't have to think about you constantly and maybe whenever we both feel sad about certain things in our lives, we can fall back on each other for temporary emotional support. you can't do permanent.
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