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Okay so there's a few things I would like to discuss about.

I've recently started to think maybe my aunt's best friend/ our family friend-ish is really quite a bitch, sometimes. I mean i really love her, treat her as a family and stuff but i don't know, the things she's been saying to me lately seems like there's always an underlying meaning to it. Something along the lines of saying I'm fat, or I'm lazy, or pointing to the fact that my mother's lazy (wtf even)

so the past week i was bounded to my aunt's office every day, and because i'm on my period, i tend to eat a lot. And every day for lunch, I eat rice. First of all, is it such a crime to want to eat rice? I mean, personal preference. So by wed/thurs she asked me what I wanted for lunch and I said "anything with rice, please" and she laughed at me and told my aunt, in front of my face "hahaha look at her face. So round already still want to eat rice". I mean, what is she, THIN? She isn't really in the right position to comment on my fatness..? And then she proceeded to buy me rice with 2 of my most hated veggies and fried fucking pork. I hate fried pork. I almost wanted to say if she commented on the fact that i'm fat, why the fuck did she get me fried lard. That's disgusting.

and then we had dinner tonight at my aunt's place, and because they're all old they like to camp in front of the tv and watch that damn taiwanese drama which i absolutely hate. So i fell asleep on the sofa, and she woke me up asking me to sit straight and not be so "sloppy looking" added with a slight laugh. She offered me some cherries to eat, i very politely declined the offer and she commented "wow rachel you have a list of things that you are very fussy about and you have a lot of things you dont like to eat ah". Hi i eat cherries, okay? But i don't feel like eating cherries the minute i get woken up from my sleep just to sit bloody straight.

I'm not pissed by the fact that she indirectly commented on my weight gain. I know I've gained weight so fuck it. but the fact she always has comments that always ALWAYS has an underlying meaning to it......... i just want to slap her face.

Another thing is.......................... dumb people making fucking dumb comments when they don't know the whole story. Or the whole situation, for that matter. I'm not wasting half a year before i go to trinity. These past few 7 months has been so memorable in every way. And only going in july would also allow me to experience poly life for 2 months and i think it's a wonderful idea. Rather than collecting my O level results in the end of jan and immediately go and apply for the feb intake without proper mental preparation and without saying proper goodbyes. People that have gone for the feb intake might end foundation year earlier than those that are going to the july intake, but we start our university courses almost at the same time so it doesn't really matter. Saying that "you've wasted 7 months doing nothing" is complete and utter bull fucking shit. I have never wasted these 7 months and i'm not planning to, i've spent it with my friends and my family, i'm going to poly...I don't and won't regret it at all. Just cause you didn't let your child have the chance to go overseas, doesn't mean you just make such stupid comments, especially in front of me. And because you said it with such a tone that sounds like you're almost saying that I made a mistake and its such a stupid choice and that you're right (and I've always hated the tone that people use when they think that THEY'RE RIGHT and everything others do is WRONG), you're kind of implying that my parents are also dumb enough to let me go to aussie, so............ wtf nigga. that's just pathetic


ok end of rant.