worth it.

I don't know. I just tend to get so ridiculously jumpy and happy when the friends I have grown to treasure and love,  fall in love or get attached and stuff. It's like, no matter how shitty my day is or how crap I feel, just knowing that my friend likes somebody and that somebody possibly likes her back too just makes my day. Or even better, when I hear news that one of my friend gets attached or something like that. So genuinely excited and happy for whatever that is to come for the both of them. Of course, taking into consideration that that person treats my friend right.

Because you've seen how much shit they've gone through and the amount of heartbreaks and tears spent over worthless people, you know that they deserve so much better. So when another one comes along, swearing that they might be different from the rest, you believe them. Hoping and praying that this time it would work out and it wouldn't end up like the previous ones. That they would be the ones to show her that she's worth it. And I guess that just makes me so happy- knowing that the people I know know and feel that they're worth it. Because girls and our insecurities really do get the best of us sometimes. I'm glad, and I hope it'll just keep getting better.

(And no, I don't think that it is wrong to be feeding off happiness from the people around me. It is not. Haha, even though it's making me feel as though I'm an empty leech with zero emotions and feelings of my own, sucking up happiness and joy from the people I have around me.)