very quickly I find myself falling back into the same patterns. infatuated, got some sort of reciprocation, mildly obsesses over it for like, a day. And then let’s the thought manifest into this gigantic monster without the person I’ve been so fixated on do anything at all. And then somehow my brain psychs itself up with all these amazing dreamlike thoughts and then, no response. Because it was nothing and it was realistically and rationally thinking- completely okay to not reply my message. But then I fall asleep and suddenly dreamt of him being with the girl he was with when I last met them. It’s always the same patterns. People I’m interested in always, always leave me in my dreams and I will always dream of them happier with their exes/someone new.
It’s like a mental cockblock and self denial. But also this obsession on wanting them to want me. It’s so frustrating to be stuck in this thought process and I can’t seem to shake it off.
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