I had the revelation that moving on from someone and moving onto someone are two independent things
because that's the only time I give myself
to rationalise all the shit feelings I have about you
from your fucking social media
(they tell me to stop looking)
(but it is the only way I know how you're doing anymore)
At that park near your place,
the 500 days of summer-esque park benches where we counted the stars-
instead of always romanticising the tragedy that I may never get to see the stars with you again,
I realised that through this experience,
you taught me that if I just waited a little while longer, I would be able to see the beauty in things
you also taught me how I should always be
looking up and never down
We are a constant mismatch
but yet we always fall into each other's wavelengths so effortlessly
I cannot undo what we did and abhor everything about us
but one thing that I am slowly but surely learning is that
we are magnets of the same poles,
repelling away from each other despite every step we try to forcefully or unintentionally take towards each other
I've been running towards you all this damn time but all we ever do is
repel, repel, repel.
Heartbreak Rides For Free // Zhang Jia Wu
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