Tonight, one of my best friends called me- I might claim to have a lot of best friends, but I promise, I don't. They're a special bunch. We've known each other for 8 years now, and through all the girls he's gotten together with, broken up with, I was always there watching from the sidelines and providing support whenever he needed it.
He told me recently that he's gotten attached to this girl, and she's slowly tugging harder and harder onto his heartstrings. They've been together for 3 months now and he said he hasn't been this happy in a while. In a moment of honesty, he told me, "you know what? To be completely honest with you, it feels good that finally, just for once, there's this girl that loves me a little harder than the rest of them. She loves me a little bit more than I love her, actually."
I'm nothing but happy for him, he is such a great catch and this is cliche af but any girl would be so lucky to have him as a boyfriend. But after hearing what he said, I also realised that with the girls he previously dated, he was always the one at their beck and call. He was the one that was constantly hung up over them, being the one kept hanging by a thread and always just trying to mould himself to be their "perfect" idealistic boyfriend. It gets tiring.
I've heard him cry over the phone about this one girl because he just. couldn't. keep. it. up. with her, and my heart broke immediately. No one deserves that kind of love where their partner places some unrealistic expectation on you and tries to force you into becoming someone they deem as "worthy to date" - be it forcing you to read more bible verses, or turning you into the shits, telling you something stupid, like "I'm not good enough for you" but still keeps you in their vicinity.
Anyway, after catching up with him for an hour on the phone, my heart feels nothing for joy for him and it always amazes me how people can feel for people that they truly love and care for in such a way.
:-)
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