2012

IT'S THE LAST DAY OF 2012.
I have successfully survived 2012. Don't know how I managed to pull through it but hey, I did it. We all did it.

Here's to a good 2013. Another year full of ups and downs, trials and tribulations, turning 18, completing Trinity and entering university..... damn 2013 sounds crazy even when I think about it. Ah I'll take it as it comes.

Hope that 2013 would be great for everyone. Ahh!!!! Time is flying so fast it's crazy.
So here's the last post of 2012. Heading over to Zhen's place to countdown with my friends later on, it'll be fun. Gonna miss my family at the same time though. :-)

Happy counting down!!!

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I'm back from Thailand!!
Merry Christmas everyone, though I'm technically a day late.
This year's Christmas somehow seemed less christmas-y than the previous years, sadly. :(
Really hoped that it would have at least felt more magical/christmas-y/hopeful/joyous but it wasn't SUPER exciting. Is this what growing up feels like?

That aside, I still did have fun on the eve of christmas eve with the girls celebrating Jamie's birthday. And then an amazing homely filled christmas eve dinner with a few of my mum's friends and I managed to get Glenda and Nicole over later on to join in the fun. And food coma.

Spent the early hours of christmas lying down on my mattresses talking about secondary school days and certain friends we've lost and gained the past year. It's close to the end of 2012 and I guess we all just took a bit of time reflecting on things that we've learnt throughout the year. It was a good morning well spent. Woke up in the morning and had our traditional christmas breakfast with my dad and Josh at the dining table, again so glad that the two girls were able to share this with me. (so cheesy yux) But yes it was fun and I couldn't ask for a better way to start off 2012's Christmas day. :-)

Below are some pictures taken during Jamie's birthday dinner + celebration:
(Yes we are still such public nuisances. And yes. I gained weight.)

(being weird as hell with the freshly turned 17 yr old girl)

Thailand update:

Thailand was a blur of breathtaking countryside sceneries, shopping mall after shopping mall, a shitload of thai food and thai iced milk tea, dirty streets, crowds and more shopping. It was a wonderful family trip even though at one point I was puking so badly I could hardly stand straight up because my stomach hurt. It was okay though, I pulled through Platinum Mall (which is 2 buildings - 5 floors and 7 floors) with that bad tummy. I am a champion. 

Fed goats, watched the sunset, caught the sunrise, rode a dirt bike, drove a buggy, ate like I've never eaten in ages, shopped like crazy, and ate salad veggies right fresh from the ground. Did a lot of things over 7 days. Also thankful that I managed to get closer to my family again after being apart from them for about 6 months. So blessed. 

Ending the post here because my internet is lagging and there's wayy too many photos of thailand to put up here. 

Happy holidays everyone! We survived 2012! :-)

Thailand

Flying off to thailand in a bit. See you in 7 days, Singapore.
(That's if the world doesn't end on the 21st...)

It's been a heck of a year and it's pretty scary to see how much I've grown, how much my friends around me have grown, and how much things have changed when you think about it.


Also, Happy 18 years of being happily married to each other. You guys would most prolly never read this but I'm glad that you're my parents. As a family, we've been through a lot of shit that almost nearly tore everyone apart and i'm pretty sure as a couple you've been through more. But even so, through all the bad fights and horrible nights of screaming and shouting, you two still emerged stronger and understood each other more. Here's to the many years ahead of your wonderful marriage.

Love you two old poopies so much even though you constantly piss me off with all the nagging and threaten/blackmail me by saying that you will take half of my future salary because you sent me overseas....... :(

empty vessels make the loudest sound

1. I honestly hate the fact that I always lack the right words to say when people around me need it the most.
2. Brunch with Emily tomorrow. It's been too long.
3. Today was all sorts of amazing and well spent.
4. I always thought there was only one person who could make me feel the way I did when we hugged. And he left. But I guess I was wrong, because you came along.
5. Untouchable by Taylor Swift is on repeat. I am embracing my sappiness this time around. Oh nostalgia.
6. I always make the same mistakes in December. Maybe that's why each year each december is filled with so many different memories. Same mistakes, different memories.
7. Why do people get into relationships they know won't last? (dumb question but damn it i just had to)
8. Your hugs.
9. Falling sick, immune system please do not fail me now. It's my favourite time of the year and I'm finally back home. I need to kick this bad throat and fever in the butt asap.

Point form today because my thoughts are everywhere.

C o u r a g e

People always talk about having courage. Of course, courage rarely is something that one displays for a prolong period of time. It's for that one time. For that time you had to find the courage to tell your parents your crappy results, or that one time you decided on telling someone you like them.

You only either have it in you, or you got to search for it until you get it. Life puts you in shitty situations, allowing you many chances to build up courage to face certain things. We all have the bravery to do things that we never imagined we thought we could accomplish if we never took that step forward. Taking that step sometimes requires a lot of faith, and a truckload of courage. And I admire people who do that. Proud to say I've been lucky enough to have so many people in my life that have an insane amount of courage, being able to pull through whatever sticky situations they've been put in.

I want to be able to do things I always told myself I could never do. Allow myself to feel things I told myself to stay away from because sometimes things get too close for comfort you tend to lose yourself. For once, I want to be someone that is worth something, at least. Someone that is brave enough to be - anything, everything. I want to be fearless. Less worrying, less afraid of thinking of bad things that might happen if I took that step forward.

All of that just requires that crazy 20 second courage that everyone talks about, to take that one step forward and not regret it.

But until now, I don't even have that. Maybe one day, I will.

Well hello there. I feel terribly bad that this space still has people coming by from time to time and I just.... disappeared.

Anyway it has been a pretty emotionally draining 2 weeks. Thanks to the feb kids here in palmerston graduating, packing and then moving out slowly during the past week. And also trying to juggle all that emotion with the stress of my semester 1 exams that I sat for this week as well. (So can you see now how it's pretty amazing how I haven't lost my marbles yet?)

I think it still hasn't sunk in that everyone has left, though it has been noticeably quiet during meal time, with no tim stomping down the staircase belting out the latest pop senstation or some diva tune that I can so easily sing along to. Now that Jeanette and Isabelle have also packed and left, it feels even weirder. Not seeing jeanette's collection of slippers outside her room saddens me, and not having Isabelle over at my room talking rubbish in the middle of the night makes me feel as though something's missing.

It's tiring because I think we all consistently put ourselves through so much change- especially this year, that when something comes to an end, we just dread what is ahead of us. This year I've said plentiful of goodbyes, and forced myself out of my comfort zone so many times. So this time, when everyone moves out, its no different. Even though it's been only 6 months with these people, it feels like I've known them for a while. All the midnight snacking, random jams in the dining area. Being weekend warriors, studying all through the night when Friday night comes by. And also knowing that whenever I open my door, they're just right there for me.

Things are going to be different, good different bad different, I'm not so sure yet. But it sure as hell wouldn't be like what it was like with the girls. But I guess that's what life is all about huh, they always tell you to anticipate change. That change is the only constant in your life. Change always hurts, though.

Can't wait to pack up and leave Melbourne for a good 6 weeks. It's time I deserve some good family and friend time back in Singapore.

In the mean time, and on a much lighter note........ Here's the yearly VS Fashion Show that comes around this time of the year, and I tend to question my existence. I am therefore, a potato.

September lovin'.

Till the 12th.

OUT OF SIGHT, 
OUT OF MIND. 

RIGHT, FUCKERS?