You build walls to keep yourself in

It's beneath you to blame anyone else for your mistakes, your reason for messing up.
Should have known, should have known.
Never going to let this happen again, coming to a realisation last night-
You're the cause of everything. Such a funny thing, crying over stupid stuff like these when you finally realise its no one else's fault but yours.
In order to save yourself, to stop hurting those around you, keep it in.

And I deserve this. I deserve all of this because I know what I know and you don't. There's no way to fix what I am, what I was, what I will be. I am the cause of this because I am simply...... Not enough.

Don't worry, I'm not happy I'm not sad not depressed haha im basically not feeling. I've just reached what you might call..... Elightenment. Self realisation is such a important thing. I've reached my inner peace, balanced the yin and yang, whatever you call that shit. Fuck.