Permanent

Because I cannot forget how I felt and how it happened, I simply can't. You are the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about at night. But I'm not going to do it again, because I don't want to kiss you knowing that everything between us is temporary. Temporary sucks, because one day you could find someone else and I'm supposed to be okay with it because we were just temporary, no strings attached and it hurts to know that. Temporary sucks because you never know what might happen in a bit, let alone the future. But I want to think of us in the near future, no matter now impossible that might sound. Because when we kiss, I think about all the endless possibilities of things that could happen if things were different. Before I met you I always thought that I'd kiss someone that was already mine, someone that I'd be together with, but I guess I was wrong. But I want to kiss you. I would, no matter how many times I try to convince myself that I shouldn't, that it would lead me to feeling more. I want to kiss you. So when the time comes, I will close my eyes and at that moment when our lips meet, I will believe that we are permanent.