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Spent the whole day in solitude today - something I haven't done in a long time.
The feeling's almost scary but sort of calming and it was very, very therapeutic.

Woke up at 1pm, lazed in bed till 2 because I was seriously contemplating if I should just mope in bed since I felt like crap. Gathered up enough determination within me to get up, wash up and head to the library. Camped at the library for about 3 hours of unproductive study, half of the time texting and the other half getting confused with the different sections in corporate law. Walked to Big W and Woolies in the city to finally get some food to replenish my fridge that has been empty the past week. Can't believe I lugged 3 plastic bags worth of food and a laptop back from the city all the way to my house, by feet. I thought it'd be good exercise, and my cardio for the day. Came home, turned on the drama I've been currently watching while preparing to steam my chicken drumsticks in between. After 3 hours of preparing my dinner, I did it. The steamed chicken turned out amazing and I treated myself to a bowl of rice to accompany the sauce. Cried through 2 episodes of the drama alone, while having my dinner. Thankfully the 3rd episode was less depressing and now I have to wait for the next episode to come out on tuesday.

I spoke to no one the whole day, I didn't open my mouth to interact with anyone besides the "thank you"s I mumbled along to the people working at Big W and Woolies. It's something so therapeutic, to be in solitude for a whole day.

Even without talking to anyone today, I'm so worn out. My mind has been all over the place the past few days and today has been good to me. It was a good day. I've taken my sleeping pills and now its about time to knock out. Goodnight world.